~:+:flying like an angel:+:~

My Mood~*

i'm happy kasi...
    - i got something that surprises me a lot.
    - napadala ko na ang dapat ipadala.
    - kasi hindi sya galit at sinamahan nya pa ako.
    - may nakausap akong tao na matagal ko ng hindi nakakausap at nakita ko pa sya.
    - i got my salary may idedeposit na naman ako.
    - he makes me happy a lot.
   
i'm sad kasi...
    - i miss him.
    - i want to text him pero pinipigilan ko tsaka na pag natanggap na nya para hindi        mawala ang SURPRISE.
    - lagi ko syang iniisip.
    - wala pa rin akong positive reply sa mga applications ko huhuhu
    - hindi ko pa sya nakikita.

Mahal Kita Kahit Ano Ka Pa....

nung bata pa ako pag nandito ka sa bahay nagtatago ako...
ayaw kitang makita o maamoy man lang...
it makes me sick...
kaya galit na galit ako pag dyan ka na...
wala akong magawa kung hindi magkulong sa kwarto ko...
ano ba magagawa ko eh gusto ka ng mga tao dito sa bahay...
NO CHOICE...but HIDE...

then isang araw, naisip ko...
why not give a chance...
sabi ko sa sarili ko, eh nagawa ko nga sa iba why not at you...
then slowly i gave myself a chance na kilatisin kita ng mabuti...
yeah, at first i can't take it talaga...nasusuka ako....
pero sabi nga nila...pag nasanay ka na...you'll learn to take and accept it...
YOU'RE GREAT...and by then...natutunan ko ng mahalin ka...

what hurts me most eh yung mga comments ng iba...
yung icriticized ka...
gusto kng malaman mo...na kahit...kinaiinisan ka nila..
kahit sa iba they find you so disgusting...
yucky...
smelly..
you caused them pain...
kahit...sa iba exotic daw presence mo..
kahit na they spit on you...sinusuka ka nila...
kahit itakwil ka nila...
kahit they misjudged you...
LOVE NA LOVE PA RIN KITA..."maging sino at ano ka pa man"
yeah kahit kasal na ako...nothing change... IKAW NA FIRST LOVE KO...
kahit na araw araw nandito ka sa bahay ko...i'll be glad...
ADIK NA AKO SAYO....PROMISE...CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU...

e2 lang message ko sau:

DURIAN, salamat at naging season mo this month, dahil sayo naging masaya ang pang araw-araw ko na meal, ang sarap sarap mo, mag isang buwan na na lagi kitang kasama sa hapag kainan...ang sarap mo talaga...at hindi ako magsasawa sayo...nakakaadict ka talaga....kahit ikaw lang pagkain sa table okey lang....super yummy mo...maraming salamat....

Naisip ko lang....

naisip ko lang habang wala akong ginagawa sa harapan ng pc ko, while browsing to different sites sa net...napadaan ako sa isang site, naalala ko ang past, naisip ko tuloy na malaking tulong pala ang pagkawala mo....kung ikaw ay nasanay sa isang bagay na laging nandyan, kung kailagan mo dyan agad, isang tingin mo lang alam na na kailangan mo siya...tapos...BOOOOM paggising mo wala na pala...

hmm ano ba pinagsasabi ko?

kasi ganito...dati umaasa ako sa isang tao, feeling ko hindi ko magagawa ang mga bagay-bagay if wala siya, feeling ko lahat ng problema ko siya lang makakatulong, i feel so weak kung wala siya, i feel hopeless, feeling ko sya lang makakasagot ng mga tanong ko...pero hindi pala...now na wala na siya, now na maraming bagay ang iconsider sa isa't isa, now na dapat mong intindihan na hindi dapat umaasa sa iba...if gusto mong matuto paghirapan mo...

ngayon, im learning to do things on my own, hindi lang puro tanong...if matyaga ka lang maghanap, matyaga ka lang gumawa ng paraan kung paano...then you'll know what you're looking for....

message:  thank you for turning me into this, it helps a lot, though i miss a lot from you. (^_~)

kaibigan usap tayo!

wala ka ng gustong mangyari kung hindi maging masaya ang mga taong mahalaga sa buhay mo, kahit kinalimutan mo na ang sarili mong kaligayahan para sa kanila, even forgetting the past...yes the past...yung pains they caused you, yung sakit na naranasan mo para lang sa ikakasaya sa kanila, nagpapakablind ka na sa katutuhanan, nagmumukhang tanga ka na sa harapan nila but still you're doing it dahil you treasure them the most....and ano kapalit? ano nangyari? ikaw pa nagmumukhang masama sa paningin nila.

hindi kaya nagamit ka lang for some particular reason? Nah!!!! hindi naman siguro, pero possible....you might break some promises but its because you thought its for the best but sad to say hindi pala...bahala sila basta ang alam ko you did all your best to make it work, you've been sincere sa lahat ng help at sacrifices you did it to them. If nagamit ka, sorry ka na lang nagpapagamit ka eh, life's like that....sadyang mabait ka lang talaga (as if hahaha).

don't worry friend let them be, yaan mo muna sila basta don't initiate something na ikaw pa maging masama, maiintindihan ka naman siguro nila if you put space, para din yun sa kanila, keep your silence na lang muna nakakaawa ka kasi eh lagi ikaw dihado sa lahat...i think it's enough, think of yourself muna and be happy...yaan mo muna hanggang everything will be at it's proper place at the proper time....k? kaya chill ka lang dyan at tayo ay magpapakasaya while may buhay pa...k....good....

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thank you for being civil...im happy to see you happy sa wakas panatag loob ko na iniwan kita na masaya, na walang pagsisisi....basta masaya ako kung ano tayo ngayon....salamat....ay nga pala ang gulo mo pala nung wedding ko hindi kita magets kung bakit ganun reaction mo pabayarin daw ba ako ng utang bad...waaaaaa minsan masama ka parin nako...hhahaha basta stay happy....ciao...

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hindi ata umubra plans ko....hahaha palpak...i thought magka-gf ka hmmm ano kaya pwede kong gawin sayo...ibenta kaya kita hahaha joke...i thought kasi mas makakapagisip ka ng mabuti kung hindi ako magpaparamdam hindi pala...sayang...don't worry plan A ko pa yun may B - Z pa hahaha....basta goal ko magka-gf ka whether you like it or not hahahaha

thank you pala sa lahat...i still owe you a date... naks date basta ang usapan ikaw pay all the expenses hahaha wawang bata...ikaw pa rin ang BEST among the BEST /gg...salamat!!!!

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tatlong tulog na lang birthday mo na....weeeeee matanda ka na...pwede na mag-asawa hehehe joke....HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!!!!! stay healthy and happy and wag masyado karirin ang karir (ano daw? gulo ko) hehehe....hear you soon....

   ***** para sa mga kaibigan kong pasaway *****

D` Day*~

July 16, 2007

- monday, starting of a busy week. I bought some stuffs for the wedding like the white stockings for the flower girls, socks for the boys, we bought CD's for the backup music, follow-up some people for the event, inquired the cheapiest dry cleaning (practical na lang daming gastusin eh). Lunch time, nako nagtalo pa kami...wala lang...maybe stressed out lang. Then @ almost 6:00pm we went to the designer for the 1st fitting....gosh...i love my gown, i never expected that will look that way...sobrang amazing...simple but elegant...walang daming arte pero so ...basta...nice...im so excited na....

we went home so tired...i went online...check stuffs, talked to some of my online friends, checked my running "robots"...there's this one thing that changes my mood, someone na I don't know what happened to him, bigla bigla na lang kung magtampo or something, ewan...

@someone

hindi ko alam why? bakit ka nagkakaganyan? ewan. You may deny it but it's too obvious that something wrong with you. You don't have to explain 'coz i don't need one. Hahayaan kita kung ano ginagawa mo now, iniisip ko din na i think it's better for both of us. You asked me many times not to change, i tried...pero i think baliktad nangyari. But again it's okey you can be like that as long as you want. Hindi kita papakialam and I know may reasons naman lahat eh..as in EVERYTHING. Anyways, good luck and ingat ka lagi.

10:00pm+ i went "AFK" ready for bed...while resting and watching the current events news...i made some reminders for today...at nakatulog na ako, as usual natulugan ko na naman ung TV na 'On'...hehehe...i woke up 3:00am coz parang narinig ko phone ko nagbeep...one miss call (11pm+ ata time nun) from someone and a text message from another someone saying good night, d ko na tiningnan ang time ng text basta nag good night...hmm ano kaya yun...ang gulo ewan ko sau...tapos hindi na ako makatulog until quarter to 5 na T_T....when i woke up, *check my phone*...nothing...FINE!!!!!!!

anyways, need to move...daming dapat gawin...11 days na lang....i'm so excited na...

--------------------------------  PAUSE --------------------------------------

Change*~

things happen
things change
things will vanish
things will come and go

someone wishes to be happy
someone longed for an unconditional love
love na hindi nagmamatter kung ano ka at meron ka
yung love na divine...AGAPE...

someone wants to have a friend that she/he can call her/him mine...
a friend who is ready to accept him/her who ever he/she is...
a friend who is ready to listen..
a shoulder to cry on..
a friend who is there when he/she needs you and vice versa...

just a FRIEND....ang hirap maghanap nyan pagnasa isang condition ka magulo..lahat nagbabago...unstable...rocky....STORMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

mistake...followed by a mistake...mistake...mistake....forever a mistake...

so thankful for the care
for the love
for the concerns
for the time...memorable time...
for letting him/her feel that he/she is important and special...

paano ka magmahal?
sino minahal mo?
alin ang minahal mo?
yung nalalaman mo kung sino sya or
yung taong nakakasama mo at nakakausap mismo?
the person itself or the things you knew about that person?
what?

END...
- malungkot
- nakakapanghinayang
- tears
- regrets

- change

- hopes
- wishes
- goodbyes
- "MEMORIES"

FOREVER IN MY HEART....

TANGA KAMO?

thank you for calling me "TANGA"
it's so touching...
no one ever EVER told me that...ikaw lang...
i appreciate it...
you're being so true and honest...
you're normal...
you're great

thank you for calling me SELF-CENTERED person
thank you for all the negative comments about me
as well as the positive comments....

one thing lang masasabi ko...

if KATANGAHAN tawag mo sa isang bagay
which i think the best thing to do para itama lahat...
then let it be...
TANGA na ako...i just did the right thing...

MARAMING SALAMAT SA COMPLIMENT...
OF ME BEING SO TANGA!!!!!!

sad but it happens...

nakakalungkot...
hindi mo talaga malalaman if mahal ka ng tao or hindi unless nasa harap mo sya...
mahirap ang magmahal na malayo sa isa't isa...
pero hindi lahat ng relasyon hindi nagwowork out ng malayo..
well it depends sa couple..
pero we can't deny most don't...

may mga taong ang daming sakit at pagsubok ng nadadaan sa buhay...
ilang beses ng naluko, nasaktan, nagtiwala, pinaglalaruan...
at dahil sa mga sakit na naranasan nya sa buhay...
nahihirapan na syang magtiwala sa tao...

maraming paraan para pagkatiwalaan ang tao...
kung nandyan ba sya sa oras ng kalungkutan mo...
sa oras na masaya ka...
sa oras na ikaw na pinakamagulong tao sa mundo...
sa oras na umiyak at tumawa ka...
sa oras na nasa pinakaworst na situation ka sa buhay...

you can test a person's love and trust in so many ways...
a simple story can change everything...
then, by there malalaman mo kung minahal ka ba nya talaga as ikaw...
or minahal ka nya dahil sa mga sinasabi mo...
or minahal ka nya dahil yan ang nakikita nya...

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#1:  nagmahal ng tapat, nasaktan, nagpapakamartyr, naging manhid sa sakit, still hoping...lets see soon...

#2:  mahal nila isa't isa, umiyak ng sabay, tumawa ng sabay, they get along, they both sacrifice on something, until time came...umalis at minabuti na lang mawala kay sa masaktan.

#3:  isang taong walang doubts kung magmahal, buhos lahat, all time nasa sau, number 1 priority ka nya, lahat ginagawa maging masaya ka...pero kulang, kailangan mo din makita lahat ng sinasabi nya...hindi lang puro salita...nakakatakot...no securities..minsan kasi kailangan mong gawin at ipakita lahat ng mga sinasabi mo hindi yung puro salita na lang...kasi possibilies...tutubo ung word na DOUBTS...baka sabihing "nako...stories...puro stories...."

#4:   nagmahal daw, mahal ka daw, binansagang lapitin talaga, nagmahal daw,  was tested, nagbago, nawala and prefer to shut up...HMM

#5:  matalino naman sana, nakakagulat, hindi ata alam kung ano pinagsasabi, oh well...maybe nadiktahan ng sino man dyan sa paligid...hoping you will be more sensitive next time, you don't know how it hurts...EXPECT THE WORST!!!!

#6:  both love each other, pero nasa bawal stage pag-ibig, one is free the other not and vice versa, till time came both free pero mahirap, the other one was tested and as expected, CHANGED.....not new though

#7:  a good listener, tagatanggap ng stories from someone he/she really loved, nagapakinig ng mga problema, if okey ang both usually nakakalimutan sya hindi pinapansin, tapos bigla na lang magpaparamdam kasi may problema, na hindi sya okey na hindi sila okey, ever since hindi napansin kung gaano sya kamahal ng kabila...be consistent...."I love you even though you don't notice it." ---NOTICE ME!!!

#8:  a man who strived hard, ang galing, ang smart so amazing, can't say nothing...thumbs up.../no1...sayang nga lang kulang ang time to know each other...GOODLUCK!!!!

||*`What's Behind`*||

April 29, 2007 | 2:21am | office

in a short time na i'm with these kind of job...ang dami kong natutunan...nalalaman...it's good thing to be exposed on these kind of environment...balang araw masasabi ko din sa sarili ko, "nakakapagod but ang ganda ng feeling na naranasan mo ang ganito..." yes, some nakakagulat...to the point na masasabi ko "really? these things really happen?"...oh well nakakalungkot but yan ang reality...

May 16, 2007 | 4:14pm | bedroom

Two days after May 14, we never felt that we loose the game, what's inside our heart is we won, why? 'coz we know na talagang panalo kami. It's just that they have all the resources and money to keep themselves no. 1. It's okey....nakakatawa nga eh gumastos pa kayo ng 150M over 15M? hehehe Oh well, its a close fight...isang bagay na nagpapasaya sa akin sa kabila ng nangyayari are ung mga comments ng mga tao just like "Nobody else can fight him this close", "Kahit ilang beses pa tayong matalo, we are still here and we are very proud of him (our candidate)", "Bakit ganun ang result?", "Halatang nandaraya ang kabila"...those comments shows na talagang something fishy...bayaran daw ba ang mga tao para hindi bumoto and worst para d lumabas sa bahay...halata naman eh percentage ng voters nako ang baba....T_T...hayzzz...idol talaga kita ang hilig mo sa last minute tactics.../no1....

The experience was great, preasures, the puyat, ung lipasan ka ng gutom, given the chance to meet high profile personalities and even people from the class D to class A.... - yun ang hinding hindi ko makakalimutan plus ung mga knowledge at mga facts whats behind POLITICS...lahat na ata ng pagod at sakit naranasan ko within the 45days and still counting...

Nagkafever na ako, my left ear got irritated dahil daw sa stress, umaatake ung sakit ko, kulang sa tulog, kulang sa tamang pagkain, ung pawis, and believe me pati dugo -  yes dugo kasi nasusugatan din ako, ung mga insulto at paglalait ng ibang mayayabang na  mga politiko, ung mga taong nagtitake advantage sa situation -  ginawa ba kaming charity T_T...ung mga panghaharassed ng mga tao kala mo kung sinong powerful huhuhu...umiyak na ako, tumawa, naging malungkot, masaya...lahat na ata...namiss ko magRO, going online, namiss ko mga tao na lagi ko nakakasama online...namiss ko ang maging masaya lang...

(antok na ako...)

....isa lang masasabi ko...we will not stop here...mabilis lang ang 3 years...just wait for us...bilog naman ang mundo eh, maybe ngayon nasa taas ka, sooner or later ikaw na naman ang nasa ilalim..

at para sa nababayaran...

wag kayo magreklamo sa mangyayari after the proclamation...choice nyo yan...pinagpalit nyo ang kinabukasan ng city natin sa 150.00 pesos? T_T...sana makonsensya din kayo...sana marealized nyo ang ginawa nyong mali ngayon...sana matauhan kayo...sana....

GOD BLESS US ALL....

||`Stressed*~

im super stressed...
im super tired...
im super busy...
im super kulang sa tulog...

what can i do ba?
nothing..
just follow what they said..
hayzzz buhay talaga parang life...

25 more days and im out of here...
sana may magandang output lahat ng puyat at pagod ko...

sometimes, i can't feel na pagod na pala ako..
why?
kasi iniisip ko, minsan lang to mangyayari sa buhay ko..
just for experience...
at least pag tumanda ako...or soon...masasabi ko...
"weeee i did that thing before"..."naranasan ko na yan"
but hindi ko maiwasan mapagod dahil sa mga tao around me...
kung umasta parang sino...
"hello, tao kaya ako hindi robot...harrrr"

malaking pasasalamat ko dahil...
kahit puyat ako...lack of sleep...late kumain...
hindi nagpasaway katawan ko..
aside from headache, wala na akong naramdaman sa katawan ko..
salamat at hindi umatake backpains ko at kung ano ano pang sakit...
thank you Lord...

and aside from that salamat sa mga tao na...
nandyan kahit alam nila na pagod ako...but still there to support..
kahit morally lang man but sincere sa pag-aalala...

@someone

thank you for staying up late para maaccompany ako hanggang sa makauwi ako ng bahay. thank you for constantly checking on me if okey lang ako, or if kumain na ako ng breakfast ko, lunch ko at dinner...thank you for letting me feel na someone care for me...thank you for kept on telling me na "kaya mo yan, if pagod ka na have a nap or take a rest"...simple things makes me happy...mababaw lang ako...kaya maraming maraming salamat...you're one of the reason why i smile...kahit im tired...buti ka pa nga eh...may time to make me feel good...kahit alam mo na i can't reply sa mga text mo but you kept on texting me just to tell me na you're there na nag-aalala sa akin...i appreciate it a lot...babawi din ako sayo...one of these days...thank you for going online if im online...salamat....


"be consistent..."  -  [for someone na hindi ko maintindihan...now so concerned...later nawala ewan kung san....i don't know...you made me doubt talaga....feeling ko you're doing things for formality sake...hayzzzz....]

have to end this...meeting will start in a minute...work work work ulit...

i miss RO na...miss ko na pumatay ng mga boss...miss ko na magbuffs...miss ko na magsiege...miss ko na magrelax....miss ko na maging masaya...hayzzzz....

soon....

|Complicated*~

SAM...
...happy with her boyfriend
...met Klint, who at the same time a heartbroken guy...
...they talked
...shared ideas
...experiences
...Klint, respected SAM...
         ...told SAM he likes her..
...told Klint he is special for her...always
...but they can't be together
SAM..
...this time was heartbroken...
Klint..
...get reunited with his ex..

...may mga panahon na both are free...
...SAM waited for Klint..
...but Klint was too scared to risk a relationship...

SAM...had few relationships...after...still waiting for Klint...
...she found out Klint also had a new relationship...
...both are happy...(i think so...sana)

now...both knew that they love each other...
...at the wrong time i think
...wala silang time pagusapan..
...scared of something..
...all these time SAM loves Klint...
...it just that Klint didn't say anything...
...Klint didn't ever ask her about it...
...hayzzz
...wish you both luck...

SAM...now stilling hoping na Klint will talk to her...about what he really feels..hoping na one day mapagusapan nila kung ano meron sila...ung love nila sa isa't isa...hoping na one day may lakas ng loob na si KLINT to fight for her...

hayzzz buhay pagibig naman oo...

(ciao...time for church....)

You Two~

kung alam nyo lang kung gaano nyo ako pinasaya ngayon....naiyak ako nung tumawag kayo...T_T...alam nyo naman kung ano ung bagay nagpapasaya sa akin, ung walang gulo, yung walang nagkakatampuhan. Basta masaya lang ako na nalaman ko na magkasama kayong dalawa... *crying*...tapos sabay pa kayo ngayon magsimba...huhuhu...ang saya ko talaga..nagulat ako...

Thanks God...thank you sa lahat...*crying*

I love you both...mahalaga kayo pareho sa akin...

Thank You~

A wake up call~*

All i wanted is to be happy, maging down if possible sa lahat, maging kaibigan ang mga tao na nasa paligid ko, pilit intindihin ang mga bagay bagay para iwas gulo. Pero bakit ganun? ako pa rin ang masama? As much as possible hindi na nga ako nagsasalita, ginagawa ko na lahat ng gusto nila tapos ako pa rin ang masama? T_T Bakit everytime may nakakasama ako, nakakausap, nakakabonding masama na tingin sa akin? Hindi na ba talaga pwede makipagkaibigan?

Why am i forcing myself to a crowd which I don't belong ever since? Wake up Khate your world is different from their world. WAKE UP!!! You're just "no one" to them!!!! Even yung taong you expected to understand you hindi nga kampi sayo eh how much more those people who hated you...

Ano kaya pwede kng isipin ngayon? Parang ayaw ni "happiness" maglagi sa buhay ko? Mamatay na lang kaya ako na ganito? Bakit hindi ako marunong magfight?  Bakit hindi ako marunong magmura para mamura ko sila para malaman nila kung gaano ako kagalit, kainis, kabadtrip. Sana kasing kasama nyo ako para masabayan ko kayo. Sana pinalaki na lang akong masama, pasaway para alam ko gagawin ngayon.

No one is at your side, Khate. Wake up~*

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im really PISSED OFF!!!!....kung ikaw taong ka walang magawa sa buhay mo wag mo ako pagtritripan ha, masaya ba talaga kayo kung naasar nyo ako? happy ba kayo if nagagalit ako? kung wala kang magandang sasabihin, PLEASE PLEASE!!!!! JUST SHUT UP!!!! wala ka ng ginawa sa akin ha...puro na lang pang-aasar...kung naghahanap ka na pagtritripan mo wag ako...fine fine ASAR TALOOOO...ano ngayon eh ganito talaga ako eh...SORRY HA...environment ko kasi may mga modo...hindi tulad sa inyo siguro walang manners...GRRRRRRR....KUNTING respeto lang...bilang babae...wag bastos...may kapatid naman siguro kang babae....BASTOS MO HA.....at isa pa wag na wag mo ipagtutulakan ang isang tao na ayaw ko...na hindi naman totoo...buti pa ikaw alam kung ano naramdaman ko...ano ka???? MANGHUHULA???? pareho pareho lang kayong lahat...sarap nyong sapakin...

yeah, yeah, happy now???? kasi asar ako? kasi galit ako? kasi mainit ulo ko? SUCCESS BA???? idollllll......

isa na lang papatulan na talaga kita kahit lalake ka pa.....BAKLA!!!!!! BADING!!!!!

*`;.lSomeday`*;l`

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this through my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the best guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
you'll see i wont even miss u
Someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

January 28, 2007 | Sunday

    My day started by going to church...i woke up 5:30am mass will start 6:00am, nice gospel and there's one thing that came up into my mind while listening to the priest's sermon...

           "be thankful for everything that happened....may it bad or good"

many things came up to my mind...kailangan ko ba maging thankful sa lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon? Maybe yes, maybe no...i prayed and think...

wen i got home d pa rin mawala sa isip ko ang sermon ng priest...the sermon hit me big...

text:

            "hi good morning, just dropping by to tell you that my silence doesn't mean i already forgotten you, that i no longer care about you, that i don't love you anymore. My silence means that i respected your current relationship now and im  giving my way. Just remember that if you need someone to talk to im very much willing to lend you my ears, my time and my HEART. Im just here for you. You take care always"

the next thing that happened? I cried....so hard....

busy day...texted someone...no reply...i wonder what happened...waited...nothing...

i went online to check mails....etc...etc...*beep* *beep* (1 unread message) *open*

        ".....sorry kakagising ko lang....."

huh? tulog? really? you woke up really late as in 12noon tapos nakatulog ka ulit around 2pm? and woke up 7:30pm? REALLY? hanep ka din matulog ano?

it's just irritates me pag ganun...i will appreciate if you just tell me the truth...hayzzz...

il end this blog with a sad face =`(




          


 

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Sunday | 21th of January

      i woke up at around 10:45am too late huh? Yeah, coz im watching this show kasi at natapos na sya @ around 1:00am T_T...so ayun puyat late tuloy nagising...i stayed whole day at home...watch ng tv...watch...watch...pag sunday i just love sitting at the living room, have some chips and juice (kaya tumataba) while watchin` AXN channel...from Amazing Race Asia...Fear Factor...CSI Supremacy...tuloy tuloy na yan...hanggang gabi...ay within those shows pala, i went to church @ around 5:30...

       mga 10:00pm im getting ready na for bed...aun text here text there naghihintay bisitahin ni Mr. Antok...I drop some good night messages to some of my friends...iba nagtext back ang iba hindi (wala ata load o d kaya nakaunlimited) hehehe...pwd naman sila mamili may smart at globe naman ako..o baka tulog na...anyways, i talked to someone, we said hi's and kamustahan...actually dami ko natanong sa kanya nun...then i found out some things about him that made the rest of my night sad T_T...but im not mad...im just sad...Questions are popping into my head, why ganito? why ganyan? bakit kami pa! Why all these things are happening...mas lalo tuloy ako d makatulog T_T but wats the good thing about what he shared, i know now where to stand...kung ano limit ko...kung ano dapat gawin about us...yan lang siguro ang advantage...

para sa'yo:
    I'm sorry if we didn't work out. I would like to thank you for everything you've done to me, for making my life so colorful. Thank you for being a part of me...you will remain in my heart forever. Thank you for that love you showed me and most of all thank you for being so honest sa lahat since from the start of this relationship...i really appreciated it a lot. Let's just keep our promises yan lang huling hiling ko sayo. Thank YOU. Pag "HONESTY" na pinaguusapan no question about it...you're the best....

   Cry ever na beauty ko...pero okey lang dapat ko lang sya idaan sa iyak kay sa ano pa magawa ko T_T...then this guy drop me a message saying good nyt aun siya tuloy nakasalo sa mga sama ng loob ko...kahit naguguluhan siya kung napano ako....

           Sorry at hindi na ako nakatext back sayo so tired na siguro by that time, hindi na rin kita macontact eh...salamat sa mga advices mo at sa mga text mo last night...este kaninang umaga na pala....im okey now...thank you sa pagsama sa akin...maraming salamat!!!

        My sunday was so stressful, ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko...kasing bigat ng mga mata ko pagkagising ko T_T...hayzzz....hope maging happy na tayong lahat....When i woke up kanina...medjo okey na rin after hours of crying...

        Sabi nga, hindi tayo bibigyan ni God ng trials kung sa tingin nya hindi natin kaya, life must move on kahit unfair, better ko sigurong gawin is to see the bright side of everything, kung bakit kailangan magkaganito at kung bakit it ends up this way...I know that "you" will always be there, as long as your happy im happy na din for you...

"Life is so colorful"

My Heart Says

Maraming bagay gumugulo sa utak ko, naguguluhan ako sa panahon, sa mga pagkakataon, sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. Minsan masaya ako minsan naman hindi...everytime naaalala ko ung dati nalulungkot ako. Minsan bago ako matulog sinasabi ko sa sarili ko "sana paggising ko bukas un ung time na una kitang nakilala para matama na lahat, para maibalik ko ung time na i was once so much happy...happy with you.."

How could time do this to us...huhuhu...bakit ganito nadarama ko? Why? And you know what hurts most? Yung paglayo mo sa akin, alam ko you're doing things para makalimutan mo din ang lahat....i know you're diverting yourself to something/someone dahil sa situation...yun ang masakit...

Walang araw na hindi ko tinatanong to:

- Kumusta kaya sya?
- Kumusta kaya tulog nya? Puyat ba sya?
- Naguusap kaya sila?
- Nakalimutan na kaya nya ako?
- Do i still have a space in his heart?
- He still care for me kaya?
- Iniisip pa kaya nya ako?
- Why things turn out this way?
- I love him, he loves me...Why it can't be?

Tanong na ewan ko....Hindi ko alam ang sagot...Akala ko sa movie lang to nangyayari, hindi pala...Everytime my phone beeps...hoping na pagopen ko...its your name makikita ko...paggising ko....hoping na 1st message na makikita ko sa phone ko galing sayo...everytime i go to bed im still hoping its your "Good night...sweet dreams...sleep tight...hear you tomorrow...i love you baby" nababasa ko...I miss the puyatan....the happy kwentuhan.....the jokes...lahat...namiss ko...She is so lucky with you...wala na syang hahanapin pa...you have everything a girl wants...YOU'RE SO PERFECT for me...

Things are different now, lahat iba na...sobra...and that fact makes me sad....ginagawa ko mga bagay ngayon kahit ayaw ko para makalimutan ung lungkot na nadarama ko...Yeah, darating na ung time na most girls dream of...dapat masaya ako d ba? dapat excited ako? pero hindi eh...kabaliktaran nadama ko ngayon...palapit ng palapit ung time na yun mas lalo ako nalulungkot...feeling ko mas nawawalan ng pag-asa na makasama kita...we kept on fighting for our love dati...you once said if this certain time comes...thats the time you will give up on us...and e2 na nga dumating na...and i saw in you that you're giving up...it hurts....but i can't blame you... i think thats the right thing to do for both of us...I'm just thankful na hanggang sa huling sign...you're there to fight...thank you...

Just want to say thank you...sa lahat...sa love na pinadama mo sa akin....unconditional love...salamat sa time that you're there when i was so down...time na im so happy and sad...sick and fine...thank you so much...and im sorry sa lahat ng heartaches...

I'll always be here for you...anytime...

I love you....

My Friends...

my first made video

... yang video na yan para sa mga taong naging bahagi ng buhay ko
... they change me in many ways
... tears...laugher..yan ang pinagsamahan namin
... for you guys..maraming maraming salamat...

I Pity You!?!?!?

ikaw na ata ang pinakaworst na tao nakilalala ko....
why? because ur the worst at un lang nafeel ko...
hindi ko lang alam kung tao ka ba? o ewan...
bakit kaya laki ng HATRED nandyan sa puso mo?
bakit parang puro GALIT..PAMIMINTAS...NEGATIVE COMMENTS..na lang lumalabas sa bibig mo?
ewan...d ko alam kung bakit ka ganyan...
yeah....pikon ako...ang dali ko mairita...signs yan na may pakiramdam din ako
hindi tulad mo...manhid...ewan...sabi mo nga "malaki lang tolerance" mo sa mga
bagay na ganito...well...kaya siguro ganyan ugali mo...
it pissed me everytime nagcocomment ka ng "ang kokorny ng mga YM status ng mga tao puro love"....."ganito at ganyan ang mga babae...."
nakakairita lang if ginigeneralized mo...wag mong lahatin...
at ano sinasabi mo na YOU RESPECT WOMEN??? sa mga sinasabi mo ewan ko lang
d ko makita ang respect....
at sabi mo "ur family builds up ur character"...siguro nga ganyan ka pinalaki...
and u pity me for being the only child of the family??? dont be im okey marami akong cousins na ka-age ko...im okey for being the only child...i pity you for being like that....
yeah...siguro d pa nga kita ganun kakilala...pero sa short time na we've been talking nakilala na kita at enough na un para malaman ko kung sino ka...i just cant believe na may taong ganito..grabe...im trying to ride on sa mga pikonan..asaran...whatever you call it..pero hindi eh...tindi mo....grabe...d ko carry mga ganyan...i wonder lang talaga kung bakit ganyan ka...and don't make it a reason na dyan ka nakatira...dahil sa environment???...d yan valid...nasa sau yan if sumabay ka...tsk tsk tsk...hay nako...ewan...
inisip ko nga...kawawa maging gf mo kung ganyan paniniwala mo sa mga babae...

pero part of me saying siguro may soft part ka din...ewan ko na lang...sana meron nga...sana...

enough of this...nilabas ko lang init ng ulo ko...
harrrrr...you just offended me...on behalf of us women na pinagsasabihan mong ganyan....
you're so mean to us...

lastly, dba may sister ka? sana naisip mo bago ka magbitaw ng mga salita na ganun sana naisip mo, ano kaya kung sister mo pinagsabihan ng ganyan???

Pangarap....

Lagi natin sinasabi dati
Na ang pagmamahalan natin walang katapusan
Ang sabi mo sa akin walang pwedeng makapaghiwalay sa atin, na tayo ay magtatagal habang buhay
Alam ko ika'y totoo ngunit nasan na ang mga pangako....
Pangako na hanggang ngayon aking inaasam

Sa haba ng panahon
Lagi ko pa rin tinatanong kung bakit ba inibig kita
Bakit ba hindi ko magawang iwasan ang lahat
Kahit nasasaktan ako sa katutuhan na...
Ngayon ang puso mo'y mayroong umaangkin

Dapat ko bang pigilan itong naramdaman kong ito?
Kahit lagi tayo nagkikita....
Ayaw ko ng umaasa sa pag-ibig na ito
Wag na tayong umasa
Masasaktan lamang tayo...
Ang mga pangarap natin ay isa isa ng naglaho
Hinding hindi na mangyayari habang sa atin ay may nagmamay-ari

Hanggang ngayon....
Hindi ko pa rin kaya ang wala ka....
Hindi ko kayang mag-isa...
Nasasaktan ko lang mga tao sa paligid ko dahil sa pagmamahal na to...
Tulungan mo akong malimot ka
Pagkat di na dapat pang ibigin ka

What's Inside???

para maiba naman...hehehe...walang magawa eh...
kakagaling ko lang sa sakit kaya e2 babad ulit sa pc...
i miss my pc...i miss the "bookmarks" and visit those fave sites...
i miss my chars (pRO thingy)...i miss a lot of things here...

awww naiba ata nasulat ko dito...

e2 na...

what's inside???

inside ng alin???

gulo ko ha...

hmmm...ano ba un...inside ng....

ahhhh got it..INSIDE MY BAG!!!!

ano ba ang laman ng bag ko...
e2..e2 ung laman ng bag ko...
and these are the things i cant liv without..

1. phones (my sun and smart)
2. 2 combs (color pink pareho...ung malalaking ipin at ung maliliit)
3. of curs wallet ko...nyay...can't be (color pink din...eh ano ngayon hate ko pink eh)
4. tissues...(wet at ung tissue lang)
5. clips..(hindi paper clips ha...hair clips...)
6. baby powder...(just incase matagal ako sa labas at magshashine ung fez ko...oily...hehehe)
7. lip balm...(cherry cherry flavor..ala lang i don't wear lipstick kasi kaya yan na lang)
8. cologne at perfume...(cologne ginagamit ko if mainit sa labas...perfume kung medyo malamig....like kung gabi..but i have them both sa bag lagi..

9. ballpen at paper (incase of emergency...nyahahaha)

10. my pink rosary...(nga pala bigay ko sau yung isa...alam mo na kung sino ka...pink din hahaha)
11. lastly, my medicines...(hayzzz sa hindi nakakaalam...walking pharmacy po ako...nyahahaha)

yan...hehehe...wala lng...makatulog na nga...baka kung ano ano pa masusulat ko dito...hay sakit ulo ko...(^_~)

I love him....and always will

When we first met we were both really happy. Many problems
came between us, the longer we stayed for each other the
harder problem came. But nonetheless, we decided we both
wanted a committed relationship and we were together for quite
sometime. We had our ups & downs as every couple does, but
we made it through a lot. It's been about days/months since
we've broken up and I'm finally beginning to pick up the pieces
and try to love once again. There are times when I long for him
to be right there by my side and there are other times when I
realized why we aren't together anymore. He will always hold a
special place in my heart, but sometimes you have to realize
that while you may love someone and while you may even be in
love with someone, it doesn't mean that you are meant to be
with that person. I used to put my life on hold waiting for him to
come back so it could start again. But i think that will never
happen. Even though we're not together, I learned a lot from him.
I learned how to love someone completely unselfishly and
without any worry as to how much it would hurt once they're
gone. Though I'm not that naive now, I'm glad that I had the
chance to love and be loved by someone that is still very special
to me. I loved him then, I love him now, and I will always love
him. He may not be my first love but he will be the last person
I'll let in. We aren't even good friends now. We are not talking
about our new relationships and honestly im not prepared to
hear one, I surely will get hurt. But aside from that, I do hope
that someday we can be friends. Someone that I trusted & loved
so much, I just can't imagine him not being a part of my life.
When I have good news, I want to share it with him. When I'm
upset, I want to lean on him. I am happy with my new life now
but here's still something missing....HIM.

Kaibigan lika usap tayo...

friend: im happy that both of you are through

friend2: hehehe hopefully makakaya ko lahat...salamat
sa concern...

friend: sa wakas narealized mo din lahat ng mali mo..

friend2: uu nga eh, natagalan din bago ko mafeel ang pain
but im okey now.

friend: good..

friend2: ikaw kasi eh, kung dati dati lang sinagot mo na
ako eh d na sana ako masaktan ng ganito...pero iniwan
mo din ako kasi pinili mo ung mas mahal mo...but i
understand u cant get over with it eh..hayzz forget the past...

friend: yan ka naman..

friend2: bakit, guilty ka?

friend:  hindi naman, wag na kasi natin pagusapan, tapos
na yun at pinagsisihan ko na...at isa pa im happy sa
current relationship ko...and i love my better half..

friend2: fine! good for you..im happy for you too..sana yan
na talaga ha...wag mong paiyak at mahalin mo..

friend: opo!
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friend: oi musta na friend?

friend2: okey lang, e2 still surviving...hhehehehe

friend: basta lagi mong tandaan na nandito lang ako
ha...anytime...

friend2: wow so sweet..talaga lang ha na dyan ka lagi...

friend: uu naman!!! im just a text away...

friend2: thank you!

friend: nga pala nakita kita kanina kasama mo ex mo ah

friend2: awww un? wala kumustahan lang..

friend: wooo kumustahan tapos mamaya nyan malaman ko
na lang na nagkakabalikan na kayo..

friend2: hindi noh, i learned my lesson na noh...enough na
yung pain...

friend: talaga lang ha...narinig ko na yan dati sayo..kesyo
ayaw na...pero sa huli ayan kasama na naman

friend2: not dis time my friend..im okey now...maraming
reasons kung bakit ayaw ko na i can assure u na hindi na
talaga

friend: e2 sasabihin ko sayo ha...everytime nakikita ko
kayo dalawa...may feeling parin na selos sa akin..

friend2: nge selos ka dyan atupagin mo si <tooooot>.

friend: hindi seryoso, ayaw ko talaga makita kayo
magkasama, kasi alam ko gaano sya kasama, kung
gaano ka nasaktan ng dahil sa kanya...at masakit din sa
akin kasi...the man i hate ay sya naman ung man you
love.

friend2: sus 2 talaga..wala talaga..alam ko ginagawa ko
ngayon...

friend: wala na akong hinangad kung d kaligayahan mo

friend2: okey lang ako promise...

friend: sabi mo eh..ingat ka na lang lagi...o sya alis muna
ako at puntahan ko pa si <tooooo>

friend2: okey ingat friend *kiss*

friend: *kiss*
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friend: ang ganda naman

friend2: alin?

friend: ung nakita ko

friend2: alin nga..gulo mo kausap

friend: nakita ko na magkasama na naman kayo

friend2: ngeks ano ka ba...wala nga kami...kaibigan ko na
lang ex ko okey?

friend: i tot iiwas ka na? i tot gawa ka ng paraan para you
will keep a distance...bakit ganyan?

friend2: teka nga bakit ka ba ganyan? alam ko ginagawa
ko..at wala akong dapat ikakatakot kasi alam ko d na kami
maging kami ulit..

friend: hay nako...sabi mo lang yan..

friend2: you dont trust me huh?

friend: wala lang...nagseselos lang ako..

friend2: you dont have to..may gf ka...dun mo ibuhos lahat
ng pagmamahal mo sa kanya, wag mo na akong pansinin
kasi okey lang ako...okey...at salamat ng marami sa
concern mo

friend: hindi eh...im talking to you as a friend...

friend2: basta im okey..

friend: nagseselos ako eh...

friend2: ano gusto mong gawin ko? magkulong sa kwarto
ko? nagkataon lang na lagi dyan ex ko nakakausap ko, at
masaya ako na nakakausap ko sya at alam ko kung saan
ako magstand...yun ba gusto mo ang mahirapan ako? at ngayon sabihin mo
na nagseselos ka? bakit? you think hindi ako nasasaktan
na kasama mo girlfriend mo? pero binaliwala ko yan dahil
alam ko na hindi dapat, tumatahimik ako kasi un ang
tama, nasasaktan din ako friend at nagseselos din ako,
pero i prefer to keep it sa self ko kasi un ang tama...kaya
sana maintindihan mo din ako....*crying*

friend: sorry kung may nasabi ako...

friend2: sana wag mo ako ikulong na nagiisa lang, gusto
ko din may ginagawa, may kausap...

friend: may ibang way naman eh...bakit off lagi phone
mo..gusto ko sana kita ikumusta ka man lang..

friend2: why? kasi alam ko kung sino lang makakausap ko
dun..one way para umiwas, one way sa gusto mong
"distance"...gumagawa naman ako ng paraan eh...it just
that may mga incident na hindi ko maiwasan...friend, e2
lang everytime na sinasabi mo na mahalaga ako sayo na
nagseselos ka, in some way masaya ako kasi somehow
mahalaga ako sau important ako sayo, pero bad thing
about it, im hoping something which i know its not right,
kaya nahihirapan ako sayo...just leave me like
this...nagpapasalamat ako sa concern mo...pero iba
approach mo sa akin eh...how can u say na dyan ka lagi
for me while dyan gf mo, nakakausap mo lang ako kung
wala sya, yes u drop some messages pero sandali lang
kasi dyan gf mo, if matagal man yan ay dahil wala
sya...ayaw ko naman ganun friend...galing na tau
dyan...nafeel ko na yan dati sa ex mo...pls dont make me
feel na 2nd choice mo ko...yes mahalaga ka din sa akin
pero sana wag mo naman ako ganitohin...sorry ganito ako eh emotional masyado...so sensitive kasi naguguluhan ako...ayaw ko masira "friendship" natin...i treasure that ng sobra...pls wag natin sirain....im sorry if iba dating ko sa mga nangyayari sa ating dalawa...ganito lang talaga ako..i think ahead...im sorry friend...

friend: okey im sorry...im sorry if iba ang dating sayo...im
sorry if ganyan naiisip mo...

friend2: dont think about it...

friend: o sigi alis muna ako...ingat ka palagi ha..kumain ka
na...gutom lang yan...take care...

friend2: swt at may mukha ka pang magbiro huh...bye
ingat ka din friend....

take it from the expert....

Not every online love relationship will make it through as a success story. An online breakup can seem even more empty and alone than breaking off a traditional relationship. Thoughts of self-doubt, wasted time and more can overflow your mind. If you find yourself trying to handle an online breakup use the following tips to help heal and move on.

- Quit using the chat or place where you often communicated for a while it might be YAHOO / RPG / MIRC / FORUMS etc...
- Become more active outside of the computer. Chances are while you were together you spent entirely too much time inside. Get outdoors and visit some old friends.
-Develop a new Internet hobby or interest such as playing games (wag muna online games), learning how to make web pages, or learn how to use photoshop...
-Figure out what you want to do about finding a new love or start chatting with old friends you haven't talked to in a while.
-Remove all reminders of your Internet love including pictures, letters, printscreens, chat logs and other memorabilia. You don't need to throw it away; just remove it so you can't see them for a while.
-Start a daily journal/blogs/diary (nyahahahha) to release all of your feelings. Chances are you may not be comfortable talking with other people about your online relationship. This is an excellent way to make sure things don't get bottled up and cause issues in future relationships.

may natatamaan dyan...woooooo aminin....agree or not? AGREE kaya ikaw kung gusto mo na sya iforget...try mo gawin those above things...it works..kahit nangangati na kamay mo, pigilan mo sarili mo, wag iturn ON ang pc...ako nga minsan pray ko na na sana masira modem ko eh...at least may reason kung bakit d makaOnline nyahhahaaha...sa iba i works ung QUIT QUIT thingy...pero mostly hindi...kc pag ON mo lang ng pc mo tapos nakita mo ung RO client ay nako so tempting, tapos click..tapos isipin mo "makasilip nga" tapos pag login ayun..ala na hehehehe.....

basta the best advice ung sa taas...it really works...un lang *bow*

~*.*~ What Hurts The Most ~*.*~

Boy, it’s been a long time
Since the last time I saw you
Feels like nothin’ changed
Since we’ve been together
I must admit that I go crazy for you

And I can see it in your eyes
That there’s somethin’ you want to say to me
’cause usually right now
You’ll be holdin’ on to me
But instead you tell me

Things have changed, they’re not the same
And recently you found someone that you
Decided to dedicate your whole life to
And what we had is ’bout to be through

And baby, what hurts the most is letting go
I just want you to know that I love you so
I know things are different now, you’ve gone and settled down
And I thought for sure you’d always wait me

I’ll tell you what hurts the most is I should have took the chance
Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand
Silly of me I thought I’ll always have your heart
I had the chance to have all the love oh, how I’m missing now

I hate that there is someone new
Comin’ in and takin’ my place
Doin’ the things that we used to do
And makin’ love to you

And oh, what am I supposed to do
It’s killin’ me ’cause I want you
And you should have known my love was true
And there’s no one else in this world for me but you

But things have changed, they’re not the same
And recently you found someone that you
Decided to dedicate your whole life to
And what we had is ’bout to be through

And baby, what hurts the most is letting go
I just want you to know that I love you so
You know things are different now, you’re gonna settle down
And I thought for sure you’d always wait for me

I’ll tell you what hurts the most is I should have took a chance
Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand
Silly of me I thought I’ll always have your heart
I had the chance to have all your love oh, how I’m missing now

I know that I’m the one to blame for losing you, oh, yeah
I really, really wish that I could be happy for you
There’s just one thing I need you to do
Don’t you touch her like you used to touch me
Don’t you love her like you really need me
Don’t you love her like you used to love me

And baby, what hurts the most is letting go
I just want you to know that I love you so
But things are different now, you’re gonna settle down
And I thought for sure you’d always wait me

I’ll tell you what hurts the most is I should have took a chance
Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand
Silly of me I thought I’ll always have your heart
I had the chance to have all your love oh, how I’m missing now

What hurts the most is letting go
Just to let you know I love you so
What hurts the most is letting go
Just to let you know I love you so
**monica**

(i miss you so much...and i will miss you more..IF ONLY i can turn back the time...IF ONLY!!! I LOVE YOU...GOODBYE!!!)

*.* Right???? *.*

Why is it that when I find love, It has to be so far? Why is it that I feel like i know you, Yet I don't know who you are....My day goes by and I think about you, Where you are, what you're doing?
And asking myself "why does he have to live so far?"...Could it be love that keeps me waiting, For the clock to strike six (gising na ako). For I know my phone will soon ring. And i feel like i am yours and you are mine...Anxious to answer the phone (dadalawang isip ba sagutin). To hear that sexy voice i've waited so long to hear. For my heart start beating faster, It's true... I have no other choice...You make me feel so special. Just by seen your screen name pop up in my buddy list and then seen your instant message makes me feel so great,...Even if I never see you, I will always feel whats inside my heart. But even so, it saddens me, When i know, we'll be apart....

T_T I'm Sorry T_T

Im Sorry

Im Sorry That I Fell In Love With You
Im Sorry That I Don't Do Things Right
Im Sorry That Im Mean Sometimes
Im Sorry That We Fight

Im Sorry That I Make You Mad
Im Sorry That I Care
Im Sorry That I Love You
Im Sorry That Im Here

Im Sorry That You Hate Me
Im Sorry That I Cry
Im Sorry About * EVERYTHING *

* Why Can't I Just Die? *

(I'm sorry...i just loved you so much..I LOVE YOU)

``kAkaiba 'to Ngayon``

..hmm..ano ba..wala lang..i came from school..finals kc namin this week...ala lang tamad lang ako palvl sobrang bagal sa 3rd job grrrr talaga..sisisi tuloy ako sayang aura ko ..hehehe.. pero oks lang..ayaw ko pa din magtambay...kakapagod din hanap quest items ng FUNNY HAPPY HALLOWEEN...sakit na ulo kakaikot sa prontera para lang mahanap ung letter U...grrr...invisible pa NPC..hay nako...waaaa sakit nga ulo ko...ewww!!!! Inis pa ako sa SUNCELL walang signal ung phone ko since last night pa..d ko tuloy nakausap fafi ko..grrr SUN sobrang KJ...

..hay..wala..ewan..ano ba...grrr.nyay..hahaaha...huhuhu naloloka na ata ako..ayaw ko magRO..grrrr...help help help....hahahah loka loka na ako..hehehhe...waaaa ayan naiiyak na naman ako..huhuhu...wala lang..ewan d ko gets...may na miss lang ako...isang tao..d na kami nag-uusap matagal na...kung dyan man sya "hi" "hello" lang..busy kc serious masyado sa career...ala lang...(totoo kaya un lahat sinabi mo sa akin??? the past few days na magkasama tau???) hmmm..ewan...wish ko lang okey na kau pareho...but i feel ok na siguro kayo kc d ka na nagpapaparamdam sa akin...(wish u both...) hayzzzz....(ouchhhhhhh...hurt na naman ako for the 2nd time around)...basta makita lang kita masaya ok na ako dun...i know naman that she makes you happy...

...hehehe drama ... hahahah...what happen to you khate????? hahahha loka loka...para naman sau (kung sino ka man)...ganyan talaga ang buhay..u can't get everything you want...masakit isipin na kung sino man yung mahal mo ayaw naman sau...hayzzzz..minsan late ka na...("The sadiest situation in life is when your at the wedding day of the one you love, right before the ceremony starts she/he grabs you..then suddenly says  "THIS COULD HAVE BEEN US BUT YOU DIDN'T FIGHT FOR ME." ")...yan wag mong hintayin mangyari 2 sigi ka magsisisi ka rin...

... 'bat ganun there's a point sa life mo na..nagsesecond thought ka of something..bakit may mangyari pa isang bahay tapos ung bagay na yon nakakasira sa present...(gets nyo???) ewan ako din d ko gets..hehehe..ewan naguguluhan ako...grrrrr...pilit mo man hindi magselos pero dun pa rin nagseselos ka pa rin kahit wala kang right magselos...waaaaaaaaaaa....hahahha..hehehehe..grrrrr..nyak nyakk...nyakk...ewan ....

--maka RAGNA na nga, kung ano ano na pinagsasabi ko dito hindi ko naman gets...hahahaha ----

Guilty????

"You have been summoned to court for trespassing my dreams, stealing my heart and robbing my feelings. If guilty: you are sentenced to be with me forever. How do you plead?"

~:+:~ Here I Am Again ~:+:~

Here I am again
Trying to take my chance
I'm longing for your touch
Longing for your warm embrace
Oh how, I miss you baby

Here I am again 
Tyring to say the words
I failed to say before
I wished I've said it all to you
Oh how, I love you baby

Your the only one 
Who can make my life complete, oh baby
Your love is all I need
Your the only one 
Who can bring a smile to me
The only one that I, wanna be with...

Here I am again 
Waiting for the touch 
When you will say the words
That made us both become one
Oh how, I long for your love

Here I am again
Trying to say the words 
I failed to say before
Oh how, I love you baby

                  -rachelle ann go-

~  wala lang...i just love this song...
sarap mag emote...hahayzzz ... 
makaemote na nga....^_~ 

Can't Say I Love You

~Hey baby, we just met ~ I have him ~ You have her
~If we fall for each other~Would it be unfair ~
Loving one another this way...

~You see ~ I love him so much ~ And you love her
too ~ But baby when I met you ~ I felt love so
true ...

~Cans say that I love you ~ But I do ~ Cant say
that I   miss you ~ Though its true ~ Sometimes I
feel I wanna kiss you ~ And hold you in my arms so
tight ~ But all I can do is stop myself ~ From
loving you ...

~If only if I have met you before ~ When no one
else is knockin on my door ~ Ill let you in to my
heart ~ Then maybe thats the start ~ Of a promise
that will never be part ~ But if you and me are
not meant to be ~ Let just set each other free ~
Let it be ~

~And if you and me together ~ Means forever ~ Then
lets take the chance ~ And build this romance...

~But if lovin each other ~ Would only mean never ~
Let fate bring our back to our lovers ~ Who
promised us forever ~